The harder I try, the harder it seems to be to keep a live where I am keeping my inner peace. I know this sounds crazy but I want that happy feeling. I don't want medication but I struggle with it. I still feel anxious alot. I feel OK but not great, not sad most days but I want to get past just feeling OK.
I just want to tell someone my phobias and they tell me how to fix them and make the go away :-(
Somedays, I feel so good but other days, I just want to come home at night and drink more wine than I should than feel like crap the next day. This is what I want to run away from. I want to feel even. I want to actually enjoy the stuff I am doing and get away from the negative office I work in. I know I can but I think it all boils back to fear and the need of security :-(
As the marriage is coming closer also, I am feeling more anxious. I think that is my whole dreaded fear of being committed or abandoned.
Life? What is it? It is one hard journey. You live, you learn, you screw up, you learn. I don't know if anyone will actually see and really look at my little old school blog but I enjoy sharing. My mind squirrels at times so I love to just post random stuff that I like. I hope that something I post touches you or helps you in some way. We are in this road called "Life" together :-) Let's help one another and practice some kindness along the way! #justagirlwithadogandablog
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