I know I write a lot of stories from times in my life to share my experiences..

But this post, it’s about this week.

I had an actual heart attack this week and just kept going,

But it was my wake up call.

I don’t tell you that for you to praise my strength,

But to maybe listen to what I have to say and take a lesson from my words.

It took some hard truths and a life threatening experience to show me that I still have a long ways to go.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes and even hurt people I love- and for the longest time, I think I had convinced myself that saying I was sorry was enough.

It’s not.

If I don’t learn from those hard truths and hearts that I’ve hurt, then shame on me, because I can do better.

Maybe those people that I love give me a chance to make it up to them, maybe they don’t-

That’s not for me to decide.

But the choice that I can make is to evolve- grow from my poor choices, learn to not hurt the people I love, because they deserve better from me.

In fact, they deserve the best and that’s not what I’ve given them.

So, when you have a heart attack and realize that you’re happy to be alive, it makes you think - and understand that life is precious.

Don’t let a day pass that you don’t tell your people that you love them.

Help others, make amends and most of all, try to a better person that you were yesterday..

So that’s just what I’m doing.

It’s going to be a long hard road to forgiving myself and maybe getting the forgiveness of a few others, if I’m lucky.

But I have this time for a reason and was kept alive for a purpose..

And this time, I finally realize-

It’s my time to shine,

Like I was meant to, all along.

Life all comes down to a few moments..

And this is mine.

I am the ravenwolf, and this is my story.

It may not always be pretty, glamorous or fully of fairy tales…

But it’s real, authentic and full of gritty truths.

I wouldn’t have it any other way.