That Old Song and Dance Of Self Sabotage Inspirational Quote By Stacie Martin

 

As much as I have tried over decades

to backspace and delete

that old song of self sabotage,

sometimes it comes back

to see if I’ll still dance.

As much soil as I have

tended to within my soul.

As many virtuous seeds

as I have fostered into self growth.

As much harvest as I have reaped,

and how much I know now how to sow.

As much as I do to be better,

by practicing the things

I have learned along the way

that work for me.

Still it tests my growth.

As much as it seems like I might

have some of my shit together,

for more days in a row than I don’t.

As much as I continue to

upkeep and maintain my well being.

I still experience phantom guilt,

insisting I don’t deserve it.

Little taps from an older energy

that for a very long time was my familiar,

and it feels cheated on somehow.

That phantom guilt comes to serenade me

with the old lyrics,

that I’m not good enough,

that I’m not really worthy,

that I will never really be ok.

But

it doesn’t resonate anymore,

I know it isn’t real,

and it doesn’t spark fear or pain in me

like it used to. Its power, over these years, has evaporated. I observe it, trying to haunt a house that doesn’t exist anymore.

And I grin knowing that every time it resurfaces, I only grow more wisdom in how to turn it down.

I learned to tune into the song of my little soul engine chugging along to 'I think I can'

and over the years it has grown into a cheerleader soul engine

chanting 'I know I can! I got this'

I hope that it will continue to drown out

that old song and dance of self sabotage.

-Stacie Martin

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